Monkey’s Paw…afterthoughts…

I have always liked plays or movies that chilled me to the bones. The tingling sensation down my spine which I get while reading the script simply excites me. I have no idea but that just seems to be the case for me.

In my secondary school days, I came across a play called Monkey’s Paw. I remembered crystal clearly that we were studying it as part of our Literature lesson. I would say by far it was one of my most favourite plays (along with ‘The Eye’) which I came across whilst studying Lit. At that time, all I could do was simply imagine in my head how the play would have been performed in the theater as I had neither the time nor energy to go source out for places that was airing that play. That chance, however, came unexpectedly to me when I took up diploma plus in poly =)

As part of my module, I had to watch the play being acted out in my polytechnic’s auditorium. I must say, I was overwhelmed with a whole jumble of thoughts after the entire play. Before that, for the benefit of the doubt of those who are not entirely clear about the original story, click here.

Of course our school did a little twist with the story. They added an extra character who goes by the name of: Steven White, aka Herbert’s brother. Steven was supposed to have died in a war years ago. So the ending is slightly different…I shall not be a spoiler =)

Anyway, about my afterthoughts…I guess to sum things up, the best line would be ‘Be careful what you wish for’ Things are not always what one would expect: wishes might not turn up the way we want them to and at times, it might destroy our lives. By wishing for something, we are in a way disrupting the balance of nature.

In fairy tales, miracles happen and wishes do come true. The innocence and purity of a child’s imagination…sadly to be corrupted more and more as they get older. This story, The Monkey’s Paw, is a twisted version of having your wish come true. I felt that it shows the darker side of humanity: Greed, insanity…how humans are so easily swayed by temptations. I would say it is not for the faint-hearted nor the sensitive. This play is dark, a little morbid I would say, and it plays with the mind.

As I watched the play, I realized how true the play actually was. I am not referring to the monkey but the humans. It is said that living humans are scarier than any ghosts, zombies, vampires or any monsters that lurk in the dark. Imagine this, a mother losing her child and becoming so overwhelmed with sorrow that she borders on the brink of insanity. In order to just see her child again, she forces her husband to make the wish using the same method that landed them in that situation in the first place! This was what came to my mind: Humans never seem to learn from their mistakes. They would do ANYTHING to achieve their goal, sometimes becoming so blinded that they do not see the consequences. Blinded by rage, anger, lust, sorrow, any strong negative emotions…it becomes too much for them to handle that they snap, like a rubber band.

Being a human of course, I have experienced some of these emotions myself. However, I decided to try something this time. I took on the role of an observer…not just any old observer…but an observer who is not a human. I threw away any emotions I had. I did not feel anger nor sorrow, no pity either for any of the characters. Anything that reminded me that I was a human, I put it on hold, pushing it all the way back. The result was this post…my afterthoughts…

So…I urge to everyone…everything comes with a price. Nothing is ever free. What we wish for might come true…but not in a way one would expect. The more extravagant the wish seems, the higher the price paid…that is balance for you…have a good night…my friends…

‘What is music to you?’

That was one of the key questions asked when I first entered my GEM class. Well, everyone has different interpretations of music. We have some who see music as their life, passion, simply something to wild time away or perhaps a stress-reliever.

For me, I’d say music is all of the above. Music evokes emotions within me and also calms me down at the same time. Whenever I feel down, I just pop on my headphones (it used to be earpieces last time) and scroll to a song. I have no idea why but my mood and personality can change according to the songs which I listen to. Basically, one could say I am almost in the form of a trance, but I can still feel pain. Thus, if you are thinking ‘can she poke needles or spikes through herself and start dancing?’ please wipe that thought out of your head. It would simply snap me out and then I would chase you to the ends of the earth (or perhaps just until we reach a dead end)

To me, music is something that’s more than just organized sounds. It contains the soul, essence and emotions of the person who created it. By listening, one can perceiveĀ  what the musician was feeling when the song was written. Sometimes, I can even paint pictures in my head simply by listening to music. Stories. Inspiration. Music helps me find all these.

When I hear people saying that music is their life, I have this temptation to find out exactly what do they mean. What runs through their minds when they say that. Because if someone asks me that, I would say music helped me gain back something which I nearly lost before. My humanity.

Like all humans, I feel pain, sadness, jealousy…from various areas and sections in my life. I admit at one point I got so tired of crying and suffering that I chose to do something crazy. I chose to block out all kinds of emotions as much as possible.

For months I attempted to do that and I nearly succeeded. Now when I look back, I am glad that I did not fully succeed in it because I would have become an empty shell, with no soul and void of emotions. However, I was close to that state. I could no longer laugh nor cry. Always, I would only feel a twinge of sadness when I was upset, and a little smile would creep up on my face when I was happy or amused about something. Worst of all, I was unable to like. I could not bring myself to like anyone anymore out of fear of pain.

One day as I was simply letting time fly past observing those around me, I decided to pick up my handphone and listen to a song. This might sound crazy to many of you, but the moment the first note was played, a bout of emotions came rushing back to me. I felt…human again. It was a mixed feeling. On one hand I was relieved and ecstatic. I could finally feel again and the lost emotions which I have once came back to me. However, for everything there is a price to pay, and my pain came back as well. I chose to embrace it this time.

Now, I would say I am almost back to my normal self. I do not know if this scare of mine will ever fully heal. What I do know is that Music has been my saviour and it has pulled me from the depths of darkness. Music is everything to me. If there ever was a day where Music is wiped out from this world, I would very likely be the first to die. Not physically dead but emotionally…I would not survive. I would be no different from an empty cocoon. My physical shell will still exist but my soul is no longer there.

That is why I am seen nowadays having my headphones around my neck everywhere I go. If i wish to, all i need to do is just pop on my headphones and I can listen to songs. With that, I will keep my humanity and prevent it from ever leaving me again.

What is music to me? To sum things up, music is everything to me. My life, my support, my friend, my familiy, my pillar…everything that is close to my heart and soul.

GEMs: Discovering Music

I have got only one thing to say: WOW! Oh my gosh I absolutely LOOOOOOVE my GEMs. It is just the first lesson, fair enough, but I sooo love the lesson. Well, I am supremely passionate about music after all =) After going through the basics, a little bit about what music is (there was no definite black-and-white conclusion since everyone’s perception would be different) What we did learn was that there are 6 basic components in music: Beat, Harmony, Timbre, Pitch, Texture Melody. For our lesson, we were given 5 songs to listen to…and our activity was to write down anything that springs up in our minds. Before listening to the 5th song, our lecturer mentioned that this was one of his favourites. This definitely caught my attention. Once the song started playing, I momentarily stopped breathing. The song was so inspiring, so filled with emotions, the lyrics and the melody, I nearly cried just there. It was then I knew why he said it was his favourite (it was quite interesting that those who shared the same interest as me came from triple E) Here is the song: a combined duet by Boyz II Men & Mariah Carey ~ One Sweet Day. Enjoy =)

Slide Spongebob Slide =)

Apparently I was just randomly thinking about things, before I remembered this game that I used to play with my very dear lovable SPIC friends ^^ SLIDE SPONGEBOB SLIDE!! I totally fell in love with the song yet I completely forgot about it until recently when I was channel surfing on YouTube. I decided to go dig for videos on the game and tried my luck on finding the song. Lucky me! I did! =D Here is the original video and the remixed version heard in the game =) The remixed version is about 3.5x faster I think, based on the difference in tones. ENJOY!

~** Original **~

~** Remixed in the game **~

Start of school…

New year, new semester, new duties, new….classmates? Well perfect time to start a new blog I’d say. I have, after all, changed a lot since the last time I blogged…so I thought…hey why not start anew? Start afresh? Show the world the new me. Time to break out of my shell and be who I am, albeit the new me may be deemed strange by some people =/

DAY 0:

I freaked out when I saw my timetable for Monday…NO DINNER!! *cries* why? My official lessons ENDS at 6pm…and my diploma plus program STARTS at 6pm. But I guess the rest of the days are not too bad…except for Thursday when my lessons are from 8am – 5pm…on the bright side I’d be seeing one of my favourite lecturers for 4 hours!! ADRIAN!! =D Tuesday and Wednesday…two hour lessons…decided to put my GEMs on Friday…

OH for those of you who are unsure of what GEMs mean it actually stands for General Elective Module. For this semester, I chose Music appreciation. After I read it, my first thought: Oh my gosh I’m back to taking ABRSM practical exams…the higher grade ones…thank goodness for this round I do not have to listen to the harmony of the mini song played on the piano and sing it out…I hope >_>

Well…let’s see so far what I have been through…chronological order of course…don’t wanna’ confused my own already confused mind!

EVENTS ACCORDING TO MODULE:

Nothing unusual…got up, washed up and boarded the train as usual…it didn’t seem any different to me that I was going back to school because to be dead honest I had been going back to school the entire semester break…for events, bonding with CCA friends etc. Anyway, I boarded the train and was just expecting a lonely ride all the way to school again…

…until I reached Outram Park. As I looked up, I actually saw my dip plus classmate walking in. We both stared at each other for a moment, and started catching up =D After I alighted the train, I saw my good old buddy old pal (yeah yeah sounds like Scooby Doo) LUKE! omg I’ve missed that guy so much! Been awhile since I last saw him due to cca stuff. Anyway I ran up to him n greeted him in a strange way…OI! Well we chatted for a bit, n I realized we were heading the same way so we could talk a little more =D That’s it for my first morning…at least that’s what I thought until I entered my lecture hall.

Apparently my first lecture was Consumer Behaviour. My lecturer called it: CB! Acronym for Consumer Behaviour … everyone was shocked! We stared at her for a moment (with everyone looking like they’ve just received a bout of stun-spore powder) before we started laughing. I was thinking…uhh why is it that the CASS lecturers know how to call it ConB instead of CB whereas SB lecturers don’t…Oh! And I must say my lecturer has quite an amusing sense of humour (I hope) cause it’s either that or she’s simply acting dumb o.o She was telling us about this one time when she was chatting with another lecturer, when she saw one of us (as in her ConB students). She so very nicely opened her mouth and said: “Oh! That’s one of my CB girls!” Everyone started laughing while I was desperately hoping that the lecturer she was talking to was a female ><” Well, overall though, I must say ConB was quite intriguing as I get to study a little on human psychology (which reminds me…where did my textbook go *looks around*) never mind i’d go dig for it later…

Now, my other module, Legal System and Contracts, I have the feeling I’d really enjoy this one. Crimes, politics, systems, even delving a little into humanity as a whole, in general. My lecturer, well she’s a strict one but I guess she is all right. At least her way of getting us to keep quiet is pretty much following the norm: students too noisy -> lecturers keep quiet -> students realize something is wrong -> students keep quiet.

Organisational Management is one module which I have the feeling would kill everyone. The memory work for this little baby is hell. My first thought for this module: oh great, back to bulimic studying: memorise a chuck load of information then ‘vomit’ everything back out during the exam itself. Luckily, we have a pretty amusing lecturer, although his questions were a little strange for an ice-breaking session. Basically we had to answer 4 questions:

  1. Where do you stay (everyone thought STALKER!!!)
  2. Are you attached (?!)
  3. Hobbies/Fetishes (Everyone was looking forward to the word ‘fetish’)
  4. Nickname

I decided to be fully honest although I knew it would freak him out a little. When he asked me for my fetish, I simply smiled and replied “Blood” His expression was simply priceless. Yeah call me sadistic but I absolutely adored his shocked reaction. However, lucky for me he could still joke a little with me so I guess it wasn’t that bad a start after all. Cant wait for our next lesson…

MASS MEDIA RESEARCH! THIS ONE! OMG! THE ONE MODULE THAT WE HAVE HEARD SO PLENTIFUL ABOUT! Yeah it’s the module that can bring out an array of emotions out of you =) Sadness, Happiness, Relief, Disappointment yada yada bla bla bla. Well I merely stared at the different quotes from our seniors and I thought: ‘let’s see who is the first amongst the cohort to break down from the overwhelming amount of emotions shall we?’ Not much was told about it apart from the overall module brief. I must state however, we had to do a pretty interesting activity during the tutorial: grab a construction paper and decorate it in whichever way one wishes to in accordance to what one stands for, could be a value or a brand or anything basically. (Mine was simply Loyalty, Ampathy and Sound) And we had to introduce our friends using this sheet of construction paper. oh well

Let me see what else did I miss *ponders ponders checks her hand phone*ahh yes! Digital Media Applications! My one tutorial which has me to spend 4 hours in the lab! Well, for our first tutorial, we ended up watching a bit of clips and staring at a few lecture slides. Oh! Not forgetting an exercise as well. We happily watched a mini french show called Amelie and had to come up with our own storyboard using the footage…basically cut and paste. Ho shit I just remembered how sucky I am at generating ideas. Oh well I just churned my mind but before I could finish my friends came up with something and so we used it! =) Our dear lecturer looked pretty amused at the ideas which our class came up with =)

FINALLY! MY JOURNALISM: FEATURE WRITING TUTORIAL! I guess this would be my favourite writing module simply because it is not as technical as my previous two and it is more of my kind of style =) One can go crazy and throw inĀ  a little more of his or her personal characters to let it show inside the writing ^^ happy happy me!

Well that’s it for my modules…whoooo…word count: 1210 words…holy shiiiiiiiiiii haizzz okay i promise no more looong posts like this =) Minna-san, ja-ne ~~ ^^